Falling, hopelessness, despair.

Well the last time I felt this awesome (sarcasm) has been quite awhile. I feel a bout of insomnia creeping up on me. The last time I had it was when I broke up with my ex that I had been with for several years. And the sad thing is I have only know this girl for a few weeks and I’m already starting to feel like shit being away from her. Been depressed and getting lethargic because we’ll life just doesn’t have the same meaning it once did. I honestly could of said I never thought this would happen to me again, just because I am not normally the guy to seek out a relationship. It just kind of happened and for once in my life I finally felt like I had purpose again and meaning to my life. Well not any more and I just feel lost… lost and alone. It’s probably made worse due to the fact that I am still texting with her daily which is nice but I’m getting the feeling more and more that it is not going to work out in my favor and that there is nothing that I can do to make it work again, which definitely doesn’t make me feel any better. Who knows maybe I’m over thinking and over analyzing it but I just don’t know ya know? All I know is that I don’t like feeling this way…